Obstacles for Writing

So after doing the exercise about using pen, paper and crayons to determine what are the issues that stop me from starting and progressing and a piece of writing, I have brought to light what I have known all along. The first thing I started to draw on my paper was a paper and pen that had a sparkle next to it. I drew this because I feel like many ties my paper is not up to par or perfect compared to my peers. After really thinking about it, I believe the problem is deep down inside my issues with my father and his comparative way of judging me based on what others have done. I now seem to keep myself down by doing the same thing, comparing myself. Another thing I drew was a dictionary because I felt that my vocabulary can only get me so far. My schooling all the way through high school was horrible when it came to writing. I had good teachers in all other subjects but in my writing classes, since I did not test very high, the teachers were not quite as interesting in helping us doing better as much as just entertain us until the end of school. Lastly I drew a clock because I feel that I need to learn how to manage my time better in writing. I tend to spend too much time on the beginning and then rush the end of most papers. Although they seem to come out alright, I hate having to finish my papers last minute. This in turn makes me feel like the paper is not perfect and comes right back to the first drawing. I’m not a horrible writer, but I need to truly believe that before I can move on to becoming a better one.