Scattered Thinking Process

My thought process has been altered. I used to start thinking about ideas and wander off into a different subject or idea all together. After being part of our educational system I have been force to think fast and simple. “Get to the point” is what my teachers would say. Although I still try to tell a story when I am writing about any subject I limit the stories to get back on task just like I did with what my teachers would say. I am a Hispanic and definitely have the indirect thinking pattern. Read my writing, I’ll take you down a winding road. 

Brain Usage

    Left Brain "Critical"                                 Right Brain "Creative"

1+1=2 style logic	drawings or stories
careful, step-by-step work	trusting what you feel
numbers, facts and statistics	Visual or spatial thinking
	improvising
	connecting ideas- Synthesis
	visual images, picturing your thoughts
	emotions, feelings, visions, dreams

I tend to see myself using both sides of my brain when I do things like play soccer, cook, teach kids about brushing their teeth, and have meetings with my co-workers amongst other things. When I play soccer I tend to do the basic moves I was taught as a child and then add flair and become creative about how to beat my opponents. With cooking I tend to start with a recipe and because of housemates being lactose intolerance, I improvise to make it work. I also try new seasonings to give the food a new twist. When teaching the kids I tend to be creative, thinking in a flash, and improvising when presenting depending on age group. With co-workers I tend to connect ideas, try to visualize the whole process instead of focusing on just the area we are doing right now, and bring up stories about experience. I also bring structure, simple logic, and use careful step-by-step process into meetings with my co-workers. Sometimes I feel that although I don’t use as many “critical” things from my left side of the brain, I am much better at them. On the other hand, I use more of the right side, “the creative” side but those things are yet to become my best assets or skills.

Obstacles for Writing

So after doing the exercise about using pen, paper and crayons to determine what are the issues that stop me from starting and progressing and a piece of writing, I have brought to light what I have known all along. The first thing I started to draw on my paper was a paper and pen that had a sparkle next to it. I drew this because I feel like many ties my paper is not up to par or perfect compared to my peers. After really thinking about it, I believe the problem is deep down inside my issues with my father and his comparative way of judging me based on what others have done. I now seem to keep myself down by doing the same thing, comparing myself. Another thing I drew was a dictionary because I felt that my vocabulary can only get me so far. My schooling all the way through high school was horrible when it came to writing. I had good teachers in all other subjects but in my writing classes, since I did not test very high, the teachers were not quite as interesting in helping us doing better as much as just entertain us until the end of school. Lastly I drew a clock because I feel that I need to learn how to manage my time better in writing. I tend to spend too much time on the beginning and then rush the end of most papers. Although they seem to come out alright, I hate having to finish my papers last minute. This in turn makes me feel like the paper is not perfect and comes right back to the first drawing. I’m not a horrible writer, but I need to truly believe that before I can move on to becoming a better one.